Late hour

Its late now.. normally im still awake at tis hr, but today i was unwell,
was struggling to stay awake.

Was just a few days past vday. I was very down today..
Emotionally hurted. Was too much to expect someone who cares
to visit me when im sick without requesting..

Things that happen today, din understd why things turn out so badly..
blaming me for few mins.. misjudging my feelings based on the person's own judgement, even though was not hw i feel.
But does it matters, he doesnt believes me.

Was disappointed and hurt, i walked off in tears. Wonder how is ever possible, to overcome if there isnt even trust and beliefs and everything is only one-side to judge, worst based on my expressions which i cnt even have any control. I felt accused, misunderstood..

My Bday Yesterday!!!

Was my 25th bday yesterday... orh.. the feeling of being a 25 yr old women... is different...

Sigh.. goals that was targetted this year seems to be drawing near, how to plan how to move forward for the coming year...All the thoughts come flowing to my mind at this late hour...

I was not feeling well for the whole of last yr, was suffering from poor stomach, vomiting even diarrhoea.. sigh!! lost 2kgs again.... was not feeling healthy... I realli hope to recover fast enuff so that i be a fit baby again ;)

Went out with family on Sunday to mushroom pot to have diner.. Yesterday, i went out for diner at Equinox. Was very happy, din expect to be able to celebrate as i was unwell.. All thanks to "C" ;)

Took some pixs below ;)

Company DnD

Was few weeks since my company Dnd. There are not much programmes and the food .. hmm.. is so-so lor...
Sad leh, never win any price...

A pix taken during DnD ;)

My Feelings

I have been feeling very down for past 1-2 wks, life seems to be a mess.
There is uncertainty in work and personal life. Just hurts and is so negative, din know i can manage to makes things work out, unhappiness and bitteress is bottling up inside me. Something i cherish very much, but yet i have no control over it, just feel things drifting apart and there is nothing i can do, the more i try, the worst i make things to be.

Just pray for God to be in control of my life.

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The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom i take refuge - Psalms 18:2
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Amen

Scribble

Have been quite sometime since i last updated my blog. Just wana scribble something even though im very slpy.. *Yawn*

Yesterday, was activated twice on coverage in middle of nitz.. was hardly slping well...Woke up at 4am, felt like a server maid... haiz.. hv to wake up middle of nite to clean and tidy it.. wat can i say.. its part of my job..

Wish to move out of support job.. hv been very tedious, hectic and wearing out my life.. =O could hardly breathe.. Gota find a way out..

My instant ndle cooked now.. gota go.. will continue another day..

Early Morning

Was an early Monday morning.... i was working on friday, sat morning and sunday.....
was so tired... i wonder when i can relax... somehow works just keeps coming..
like there is no end... well.. probably dats abt life in IT...

Hurray, finally i can claim a day off today... was hoping to rest.. and i realised i have to make my way out to data recovery center... the last hope to recover my precious data... so my day off is gone once again...

Now i am searching for solution to rescue my little fish.. it is having red spots and its neighbour was badly infected till it couldnt swim, hurts me so much to see it struggling....must save them...

WeekEnd Blues

Today, or rather yesterday.. was a tiring day.Weather was so good on a saturday morning but i had to slog in the office... Too bad, no choice, the hardening schedules are real tight and i gota make it thru...

Life working in new company is really not easy.. Have been struggling to strive a balance between work and personal life.. The more efforts i put, the higher the expectations... dats the problem sometimes...Sigh!!!

Though work is tedious, but still ppl is the hardest to please at most times.. sensitive creatures... always so difficult to please...

Even at this late hour, guess wat, was trying to lookup some aerobics url links... searching for some LVM survival stuffs required for my work.. Guess dats the life of a hardworking IT Specs...

Life still goes on... However, i have to admit that i still enjoy the day much =)
Tomr would be a nice day as i would be going bladding... hmm.. sounds nice...

Need to tone down my baby fats.. haha...

Its late.. i gota go.. ciaos..

===Project Deadline SooN==

After slogging for half a yr, my fyp reaching an end.. i was struggling.. To many other classmates, i was viewed as in a better situation.. but i hv suffered alot..

My illogical sense does not allow me to do coding very well.. & worst thing my fyp involves dat..
Duno how i ended up in such a state whereby, the project has reached to pt where i cnt do anything abt it, cos there is no way i can explain some of the results.. i was at a loss...

Struggling to still adapt to my new environment and work dat im doing now... at the sametime,
worried and stressed abt my proj. I hv to beg for help and still got rejected and blamed for nt being understanding. I wonder if anyone can understd how terrible i felt inside... looking at the days draw near, but yet proj is STUCK somehow. I also din entirely understd the coding portion..
WAT shld i DO... Now he busy with his own life and work, din hv much time to bother with me also, afterall not knwing wat i be able to gv him in the end, i guess it does hv an impact on assistance rendered..

I told myself, i dun want to be in such a limbo situation anymore, dun wan to be dependent on others, wanted to strong and independent women. Pray that God will bring me thru this period of tough times, that i may be able to graduate after 4 yrs of struggling. Amen

Agape, Irene